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Rant: I'm a INFJ Gemini
3 months ago · · INFJ, · Explicit
"He's not my soulmate just another wounded man I saw my avoidant father in".... Those words burn and don't unburden my back. They don't soothe any pain. Or dry any eyes. I don't care what you say. Your not my friend. I chose friends with conscience tongues not fucking pit vipers. Friends that don't alert u to pain and leave you to wallow in it. Real friends.
I'm stubborn. I have child like curiousity. I'm naive. I'm lucky not experienced. But fuck you. I am human. And despite what everyone likes to think, that makes me inherently bigger than the things I do and feel.
I am cold. And I'm alone. Darkness's are not just around me but trying to take me. But my friends are real. Añd they pray for me, and knowing that they love me. Is more.
He wasn't everything I needed, he wasn't strong enough to stay, he was broken before I found him, and I didn't deserve how he treated or left me. I didn't deserve what his "friends" told him to do to me. But my heart was real. And I gave it. I gave it several times. And their choices ripped my child from my arms. As a mother I wailed, I was crushed, my soul was becoming tired. And they all called it onto me.
But I love, I still forgive. I see and pursue the positive change. I believed in him.
Call that a rampant child inflicting her will on the world. But it is not a choice, it is a condition of my SOUL. In defiance and rage to keep chosing love. The world may condemn me and call me foolish. But the world wishes it could endure what I've been threw and still love. Fuck those words. Silencio Bruno. I am me.
YOU CAN NOT PUT DOWN THE VERY THING THAT MAKES ME BEAUTIFUL. You fucking snake. Consume your own tail with that mouth.
When a snake eats,it's fangs DRAG creeping across the flesh. So in your "rebirth" know. Know that you will feel that filthy mouth the entire time dragging you into yourself.
I believe in him to rise. Where ever he is. Beyond the snakes and men. There is a soul, in pain, rooting for him. A strong one who believes that HE IS MORE.