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I am currently working in an accounting department. I just recently started. This is my first job. But Im already turning 24. I feel like I've wasted so much time in school. Trying to get a degree that's really not of worth unless you pass the board exam. But I just decided recently I don't want to pursue this board exam which will cause me another time and effort if I try to. I feel like I just recently realized, this is not for me. But the thing is, what's done is done. Those wasted years were done. My coworkers of my age have 2yrs of experience in work already. While I, I don't have much to offer. I just have a double degree, but then again, I don't have much to offer. Now.. Actually I just came from from that's why maybe I'm judt tired that I feel depressed. I'm gonna add additional info about myself. You see, I'm quite clumsy too and forgetful. And disorganized person. And idiot. Recently my papers were missing, but because I'm not sure of everything, I don't know if it's my fault or those papers were really not delivered at all. I tried asking the sender of those documents, but ofcourse, they will say they did sent it. I just maybe hoped that if it's their fault, they will admit it. But yes ofcourse I can't know for sure who's at fault. I'm actually an auditor. A rookie. And about to be charged worth of about 40 dollars. I'm just quite mad because I am going to pay for something I am not certain if it's my fault. I'd be honestly more willingly to be charged if I know it is really my fault. But no it's not. And the conflict is, I am clumsy. I lost trust to myself. I don't believe in myself. It's like I may believe others more than myself. So the problem is, my problem is, who will be there for me? Everyone act for themselves. Who will be at my side if I can't stand for myself? I was thinking, it's kinda pity that even I, don't trust myself. I just depend on others in hope that they will always be honest. I'm the type of person who find it so hard to lie. If I trust people for their words, will I be able to go in the flow in this world? Clumsy, idiot, and lack self trust, that's me. Even my family, they were never really been proud of me. Cus I'm clumsy, idiot, and so I don't believe in myself.
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I’m proud you, you’ve accomplished more than me. I’m 21 and still in community college. Make sure you keep a binder handy for all the paperwork you’ll have and make sure you label them so you don’t forget which is which. Also don’t kick yourself while you’re down yes you’re paying 40 but you’ll be making more eventually. I believe in you and I’ll be thinking of you :)
Lots of love and good luck with your job and this crazy world
ReplyA note to add: please don’t compare yourself to others it will just bring you down. Be proud of yourself and your accomplishments :)
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ReplyIn the grand scheme of life 2 years is not the be all and end all at all. And you are actually ahead of many anyway but you focus only on those ahead of you in an unhealthy way I think. You still have time strongly to your advantage, don’t beat yourself.
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