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To my family
1 month ago · · Depression, · Explicit
Well it’s suicide prevention month… it hurts seeing you guys laugh and smile when I’m here in pain. I attempted just 3 days after my 14th birthday. Are you guys doing this on purpose..you know making your kid feel like shit isn’t something to be proud of. You decided to have me, but never once told me you guys genuinely love me. I was bullied and you guys didn’t care. I was abused and you guys didn’t care. You guys added more to my pain by mentally abusing me. Is it fun for you? You know when dad died I felt kinda at peace. Does That make me a bad person? I mean I felt happy that I can wake up without him calling me names or judging me on everything. But I tell myself at times that he was a good person. He loved me for the first 3 years of my life. He took me everywhere and I had the best time. But why do small good things wash away all the bad things he’s done to me. I hate it. I wish I never failed that attempt. But this month I’ll work hard and show myself not anyone else, that I’m strong and I hope everyone checks on their loved ones. This world is cruel..