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1 year ago · Thoughts, +12 · Explicit
This world sucks. Family is crap. At least mine. I'm constantly trying to be manipulated or abused by my drunk of a father. Mom and him have both turned against me. He tells me anything just to get what he wants out me and doesn't keep his promises about repaying me. He was trying to bum me AGAIN earlier. I said you never paid me back what you promised you would. He would only then resort to "well I did this this this and this for you , you don't look at that"... and I go "yeah well don't make promises if you're not gonna keep them". IT'S NOT MY FAULT YOU ATE ALL YOUR FUCKING DRUGS AGAIN.
Then the dog proceeds to freak out, mom takes dad's side because she's so blinded by his narcissistic bullying and acts like I'm the one in the wrong for getting mad. Dad proceeds to say "I'll never blah blah blah for you again''. Is it my fault he abuses all his drugs in a week then comes to me begging me for my meds????? I told him you don't have to abuse them he just snarled at me. Hes a fucking monster. Mom acts like he's right and I'm wrong no matter what he's brain washed her into believing manipulating and his abuse is ok.
I would walk away from here and go stay at a homeless center and live homeless leave the area if I wasn't stuck here and addicted to my med I can't do without myself. I legitimately need them . He abuses them gets drunk and don't remember and acts like everything is supposed to be a Disney musical like nothing happened and now mom seems to support him despite getting drunk keeping me awake for a week calling me names not remembering. I'm tired suffering because of this man. He stole everything I got in life monetarily now my little peace and joy. I'm done. So so so so done. Please universe let my dad fall into his own nets and traps without it affecting me. I'm tired of suffering. Because of him and his behavior. I don't have a friend at all to turn to and family have all turned their backs on me because of mom and dad stealing off grandma years ago. That's the reason they were all begging crying for my help because nobody would help them once it was discovered they stole grandmas checks but hid it from me and everybody did to pawn them off on me which was wrong because they bummed my other aunt he did for a good $10000 she said yet drawing a monthly check spending it on drugs.
I can't do this anymore. I'd hit dad with a lighting bolt if I could. I'm one tired human. I'm broken. I'm alone. I'm hurting. Im tired of suffering here. Damn you dad for your abuse hell and misery you cause and do to me. You'll get what you deserve one day. Let God avenge me for the way you do me.
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