What are you looking for?
1 month ago · · Poetry,
One day you'll wake up, the pain to much to bare, the sudden realisation that this person doesn't care.
Dont you think you are worthy of so much more? Why are you accepting being called useless whore?
Be honest & think of the last thing he said, did it make you feel sad & stressed, was he just messing with your head
Your confidence has gone, your mind is so confused,
That loveless feeling when your body is used.
Do you think he thinks twice about telling another elaborate lie, do you think he cares that you sit in the bath for hours just to cry?
How much effort does it take during a day, trying not to upset him being careful of what you say?
Keeping your feelings to yourself so you don't offend, desperately unhappy, having to pretend!
He sits around the house all day, not doing a single thing, he's out all night every weekend & doesn't wear his wedding ring.
The texts, the calls, the pictures it doesn't matter you have proof, the problem is that you went through his phone, not the actual truth.
You start to care a little bit less you don't ask questions or moan, whether he is home or not, either way you feel alone.
Nothing you do is ever right, your the reason for another fight.
You act crazy & paranoid, it's all in your head,
Listen to yourself, your pathetic, that's not what was said!
He might give some 'real' affection but it's very rare, usually after a one night stand or his latest affair.
Hurtful Vicious names no longer cut like a knife, hearing them daily is just a normal part of life.
You keep quiet & make excuses to stop your friends from knowing, but your eyes are now dead, the cracks are showing.
"All the problems, everything he does most of it just in your mind, you really should be grateful, he's the best you could ever find!"
It's time to wake up & realise this love isn't real, if it was do you think your heart would need time to heal?
You need to get control & take back your pride, stop being a passenger in his car crash ride.
Don't wait for apologies, stop accepting the blame, he's a narcissistic bully, he has no shame!
To him your just the support in his one man show,
He will always be number one & you already know, his life revolves around Him, himself & his arrogant ego!
So you You take your broken heart & put it behind bars,
Each fragile piece needs mending, it's time to fix those scars.