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1 year ago · 2 · Stress, +8


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Yesterday I felt okay after a period of sadness and I was a bit afraid to be happy because what if I'm sad again? I actually thought I would be wrong, that I am just overthinking but a few hours later, I cried. I dont know why I was so surprised that it happened when I'd already predicted it? its just kinda funny and not at the same time that I was right lol. And it happened again today! I woke up thinking that okay, I wont ruin this day, I will try to be okay even though I'm afraid and then I cried.. I cannot believe it. it just makes me think.. why am I even trying? its like someone is joking with me, I feel like an idiot right now. What makes me feel like a bigger idiot though, is the fact that I still want to try because part of me is hoping that it will be different this time.

I will probably regret posting this in a few hours but oh well....

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  • Novni Guest · 1 year ago

    Just go with the flow~☺

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  • AcerbicAsh · 1 year ago

    Don't measure yourself based on your sad moments. Focus on the good moments. Yes, you were really sad yesterday, but you also felt okay for a bit! How many other days have there been when you feel like that? You are making progress, because you had a moment of feeling okay. You can't expect yourself to constantly feel better, there will be setbacks, but you are still making progress. Having sad times doesn't mean it will always be like that. Feeling sad doesn't mean you are falling back down. The periods of ok are when you know it can get better, because for a few minutes it was better.

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