A Letter to my Long Distant Boyfriend

Hi babu, today is the 14th of September. Tomorrow is our 13th month of love but you'll be nowhere to be found because your data subscription will expire tomorrow. My school year has also started so I'd be very busy not just for the next few weeks but for the next 6 years. You know I hate studying, it gave me depression to the point I commited suicide twice but when you came, I learned to overcome my fear of going back to school. Also, if I'm not able to graduate with a degree.. I won't get a good job and might not even meet you in this life. I know you love me, I trust you, but I'm still scared of losing you. Because 6 years is a long time, and based on your culture.. your parents might marry you off in a few years. I honestly want you to do something and help me earn money so we could meet sooner. I am so pressured to collect money for flight and wedding expenses. I know you're doing something to find a job, but I don't think you're giving your best. And I don't wanna say this to you coz what if you really gave your best and I'm just far so I couldn't see it. But still, I feel like once I fail in saving money... we'll never meet in a lifetime. It hurts when I say I'll send you money so you can come to my country but you don't want. Saying you have responsibilities in your family. I hope you don't forget that I'm also the eldest daughter and the future breadwinner of my family. It's difficult for me to leave the country for you either. But I still want us to make it. You also tend to hate on my faith and belief just because you're an atheist. I missed you when you were still hindu. You were so caring, bright and respectful. I was even so fascinated about your explanations that I've thought of converting in your religion. But eversince you decided to be atheist you became disrespectful and plain rude. I miss you. I love you so much to the point I'm ready to do a lot of sacrifices.. but if ever one day I give up... I hope you don't blame me. I love you, I was inspired to make my life better for you. It hurts that my existence isn't enough to give you a bit of motivation in life. I love you, I wanna cherish you and accomplish all our plans together. Let's see if God and the universe won't stand against us.