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Dealing with foster care as a teen
1 month ago · · Stress, · Explicit
Ugh it's shitty as hell. I know I'm starting this off with such vulgar language, but I just had to get it out. In fact I'm going to get all of the raw feelings and emotions out. I'm going to be serious here being in Foster care as not just a teen, but just being a person in foster care in general is just one of the most; unfortunate and most dreadful situations. Just the feelings that come with it everyday. I miss staying with my own family. I miss seeing my siblings and just being with them. I even miss my mom. My mom and me didn't even have the best relationship, which is why I'm in the foster care system in the first place. I hate being in this situation, No everyone, anyone in this situation hates it. There's just so much that you have to deal with. Going down to the extremely impolite foster parents to the discomforting group homes.
It's truly an
Malaise feeling. Let along going through this while school is in session is way elusive. I have to focus on "wow I am actually in this situation". Well not really it's just always on my mind. I mean since I'm in this situation It's going to be on my mind without a doubt, and I simply cannot change that fact. It's just the overwhelmingly feeling of discouragement that you get while being in foster care, It consumes you as a whole. You want to leave, you want to live with your family but you simply can't just do that depending on your situation. Not to mention that with my situation I obviously can't be with my family right now. All I really can do is keep pushing and to not let my self get so consumed and despondent. I mean I can look on the bright side ! I have a roof over my head, plus food to eat. So this isn't one of the worse situations but, It's not one of the best either.
I was 5 going on 6(years of age) as far back as remember being in foster care first. I was so young to even understand what was truly going on. In fact I really don't remember everything so It doesn't affect me as much? Or so I think.
Anyways if anyone is enjoying reading my little distressing thoughts and life I'll update and tell more if anyone even sees this.