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I need to let my ex go
4 months ago · · Self love,
I'm best friends with my ex. I know I know it sounds weird but i'm happier now than I've ever been. Sometimes though I still get the feeling that I'm waiting for him to text or call, to tell me how beautiful and wonderful he thinks I am. Especially when I have low self esteem moments I rely on him so much, maybe because he's the person who knows me the most? He knows everything I hate about myself and he likes all of it, so I can't be so horribly flawed now can I?
So today I wanted that kind of comfort but I didn't get it from him. I guess he's busy, I don't know. Anyway I wish he would just call and tell me as he usually does "i feel lucky i met you and im probably an idiot for jeopardizing our relationship, you're wonderful". And he might call me eventually, and say all that. But moments like these make me realize I need to let him go. I dumped him but i still need him too much. I need that comfort, that support, that unconditional love. And i need it from him because only he knows me that well. But I hate to feel this vulnerable and I'll be damned if I let him know how I feel. Not gonna happen. I'm not gonna call and I shouldn't even answer if that's what I'm feeling tonight. It's not right and I need to learn to love all of me on my own. It's just so hard and not fun at all