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I never thought I’d be in this position but it can happen to anyone. And never believe that it won’t happen. This year I lost my mom, I am only 20 and we lived in the woods but close to a gas station, I lived with her there for 12 years. We had a farm with horses, lots of dogs and cats. I lost everything when we found out she had barely 2 weeks to live. It was a sudden cancer that took over. She was dazed and hallucinating most of the time. And when she did pass her common in law took everything she work for. 50 years of stuff he had no special memories with (As he said). But now i don’t have a home or even my own bedroom. I’ve been couch hopping around my older sisters. And I left to go to my grandparents on my dads side to try to pick myself up and make a living, but I had to leave my dog to my sisters to hold for me. It worked for a bit and I miss him dearly but I’m pretty far away, only have my L and scared to drive in this big city. But he’s been apparently running away and causing mischief, recently and my sisters husband has decided that they can’t handle him anymore. So one of my other sisters said she might have a friend that will take him in, and now they are talking about how he doesn’t deserve this and that I should rehome or sell him. I’m sorry but he is the last thing I have left. I had to give my horses away that my mom bought me when I was 13, give most of the stuff in my room away already. Now they are trying to force me to give him away? I can’t trust family anymore it seems. They have their lives all solved. I was just starting to set foot out of my moms when things crashed down. I’m forced to do grow though my grief of being without my mother, when she was all I knew and had. How do I even start? I’m just wanting to die by now because this is so overwhelming, it’s hard to even breathe right now. It’s like no one understands what and how I’m feeling. It’s like I’m in mud up to my shoulders and they are asking me why I’m not moving. I’m so tired of being alive. If my dog is gone then so am I. After years of growing and watching my mom get beaten black & blue, bloodied and crying & screaming. After being sexually assaulted and harassed by her male friends and boyfriends. Being forced to mature at a tender age of 6 1/2, and countless times of saving her from from death itself. Watching my oldest and youngest animals die from the most stupidest things. I am so fucking tired. I feel as if I lived over 80 years. I just want to go away forever and be lost or dead.
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I am so sorry you are going through this. My heart is so broken for you. Start a gofundme page. Your circumstance is overwhelming. Human beings connect with this kind of stuff.
ReplyI would but I don’t think my reason is good enough, many people already told me that it wouldn’t work.
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