I Hated It There

I hated a lot of things at that job - but I sacrificed over a decade of my life to that place with the promise of a better facility and work environment in the future. And you let me go because you don't like me and didn't like that I was the only person who would tell you no. And now that I'm gone the check and balance is gone and that truly scares me.

I hated it there but I worked hard to make it a better place and you voided over a decade of hard work with a single phone call. Just seeing pictures of the people who used to be my work family on social media now hurts me and I am not doing well. I feel like an imposter and I don't know what to do or how to get my self esteem back.

I hate you for forcing this change on me. And deep down I know leaving that place is for the best, I just wish I could have been the one to make that decision.

I am not doing well and don't know what to do.

(I'm going to be fine - a picture of a lot of my former colleagues all having dinner together along with my replacement just really triggered me tonight and I needed to get it out.)