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2 months ago · · Need Advice, · Explicit
i fucking hate this. there is so much wrong in my mind. and i don't know what is what. i'm diagnosed with anxiety and social anxiety and depression and adhd and i have ocd tendencies and some trauma ig and like. i feel like i'm losing my mind. i don't know what's fucking wrong anymore. i dissociate so often. i don't know who i am anymore. i don't know what memories are real and what aren't. i just had either a meltdown or a panic attack i dont fucking know which. my memory is fucking horrible. i just...i feel like i'm screaming inside all the time. i have insane mood swings. i'm rlly suicidal at times. i have strong self harm urges. I DONT KNOW WHY ITS SO BAD NOW. I WISH I HAD A MAGIC WAND THAT COULD GIVE ME AN ANSWER. is my mental health just getting worse? do i need to change med doses? do i need to change med types? was i misdiagnosed? was i diagnosed correctly but there's another issue that was missed? is everything right but i'm just getting worse because life is more stressful? am i making it worse by subconsciously encouraging my symptoms? what if i'm autistic? i don't know anymore. it's gotten so much worse over the course of a couple months.
i want help but what the fuck am i even supposed to say? i don't know what the fuck is wrong. idk. if anyone has advice or literally anything to say pls do i'm so lost