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I feel so alone
3 months ago · · with no friends,
You know that feeling you get when you desperately want to be with someone, and talk to someone, but no one is there? That’s how I’ve been feeling. I’ve lost so much in the span of 2 months its insane. I miss having a companion, someone to talk to. I have one person and I am so grateful for her, but she has a ton of friends and I’ve lost everyone. I did it to myself. My depression makes me extremely irritable and I ruined all of my relationships with my friends because my ex whom I dated for 8 months as was my best friend left me and he hurt me so bad. I stopped caring about literally anything and ruined my closest friendships and now my friend group, the people who wouldn’t be friends without me are now closer than ever without me. It’s been a few weeks and I’ve definitely changed my anxiety has gotten so much worse but I’ve been doing okay during school with only like 2 friends left and all. I’m eternally grateful for those friends but when I desperately need someone the entire world is busy and I don’t mean that towards them, I mean it in a general sense. I just don’t feel like anyone cares about me anymore, and if they did in the first place, it wasn’t genuine. I just really want a hug right now and someone to talk to and for them to listen to me for 5 seconds. I know I’m extremely irritable at times but I’m trying and I honestly can’t tell who is being genuine anymore. I just want someone to talk to again.