My Timed Entry

Why does it feel like the world just keeps closing in on me? When there's no air to gasp into my lungs and it feels like I'm drowning. Why does life seem to get so dark and feel so confusing? Why do things happen to us that break our hearts or tear us down and leaves us there all alone to suffer? Why is it that when you finally do something great, everyone looks at the bad sides of you and picks you to tiny pieces? And then when you finally find someone who cares and you can talk to whenever, you don't open up because you know you're a broken person and you can't show that part because you're scared of them running away from your mess. Why is it when you finally are allowed to be happy you're not allowed to, because the world just keeps pushing you back down under the water? Life isn't fair. Life will never be fair. Life is a dark evil place until you know how to pick yourself back up and learn how to swim. Or when you learn how to lean on that one loved one.