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i feel like ive been struggling for years, but i dont know if it was enough to get help, you know. like my family is great, usually.
i think its gonna be very selfish of me to tell them about my problems, because in the end everyone got their own problems, and all of them never "complains" about it or even spoke it out.
just imagine their shock if i just came out of nowhere and be like "yeah ive been slicing my whole body with blades for 4 years, with no genuine reason"
and i know that one day theyre gonna find my scars and i eventually have to tell them about it, and im definitely getting yelled at, again. if i dont have an actual reason behind it.
oh yeah forgot to mention last time they found out abt my ED they yell so much at me the whole day, and im forced to eat out of guilt? like holy shit calm the fuck down
they dont normally yell and i dont think any of my siblings ever get yelled at that seriously
and i have to face all the stress again, and again, only with myself, and ends up relapsing twice as worse, and then get yelled at again, and stress again, and then relapse again, then get yelled again, and blablablabla
fuck im tired
but i know i cant kill myself bcs im so fucking sure they will fucking kill me manually if i survived trying
so yeah will go back cutting again byebye
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Doesn’t seem
Like your family is that great if their response to harmful behavior you exhibit is to yell at you. Supportive family members listen, empathize, and if can’t offer any direct help or support with a specific issue because they’ve never experienced it, than ok that’s fine they should tell you they love you, and help you move towards a solution.
Don’t fool yourself with that my family is great shit if they’re really not. My dads a doctor my moms a pastor, they’re successful as shit but guess what they were also mentally abusive and neglectful of me and did not handle my sexual abuse by an adopted sibling in the proper manner at all. They blamed me
For it and made me feel like I was demon possessed. I’m 30, it has taken me multiple rehabs, multiple suicide attempts, and
Multiple states and tons and tons
Of therapy for a decade to realize this stuff. While
My parents love
Me and just made mistakes and shit etc., I can choose to love them but have very very distinct boundaries and give
Myself permission to be angry at them, to know that while they’re great in the world and shit and have accomplished more than it looks like
I ever will, they really fucked up and dropped the ball as parents with
Me.
Anyways, go get help sister or brother. Me checking
Myself into the er and then going to psych ward in June was the best decision I’ve ever made. My pain, that nagging, suffocating, million pounds of
Pain and anguish finally was to much for me. I just wanted to fucking die. But since I was to cowardly
To do the deed myself, the pain took me to the ER.
I made the choice to say f it and give changing a chance. I now know I understand that stupid cliche of when the pain of staying the same is greater than the fear of change, you will change or However that saying
Goes.
Best of luck, get some
Therapy, next time you want to cut, ground yourself, do some
Deep breathing, start doing positive affirmations. Yeah all the suggestions and all that shit sounds juvenile and worthless, but cutting
Yourself and staying the same
Miserable person just wanting to disappear is kind of silly and pointless too, isn’t it?
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