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9 months ago · · Anxiety,
before the pandemic, I was a well balanced ambivert and feelings of anxiousness was something I rarely felt and i never struggled with it.
since the pandemic started, I don't really get to socialize much except with the people I already knew. i didn't notice anything wrong with that or what effect it had on me
that was until online class started for me.
we were simply asked to introduce ourselves, there was even a format given to follow and yet I broke out in cold sweat and my body temperature was really high. I was trembling all over. and after I introduced myself, I literally cried.
it was very new to me. I performed a lot growing up, even until before the pandemic started. I'd perform in gymnasiums in front of tons of people, alone or with a group, I never felt that kind of anxiety.
even if I was nervous, I was raised and taught to push myself to things no matter how much I didn't want to do it. I also am good at controlling my emotions and I am often levelheaded.
but after that experience, I realized that I've changed. even after months of online class, each time I sit in front of my desk with my hands on my computer, that sensation alone is enough to make me sweat. I don't even turn my camera on.
I thought I'd be fine after a few weeks, but I was wrong. I thought I'd be fine with living like that, I was wrong again.
it's frustrating. because like I said before, I never felt that way. i can't report or recite in class even if i wanted to. the teacher hasn't even started and yet I already have quickening breaths.
I hate it. it makes me feel so weak and helpless.
is there anyone who can give tips or advice?