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1 month ago · · Stress, · Explicit
No one's worried about me
And honestly? I prefer it that way. I don't want stress anyone out. I've been the stressed out one its not something I'd wish upon anybody (though let it be know that was a really toxic friendship. Not giving any details though as its not really important)
But I miss you. A lot. I know you weren't great but I miss you so fucking much it hurts. I fucked up. I fucked iup badly. I know I did. I know I can't have you back. I know I'm the one who cut you off but I don't know what to do anymore. I don't feel safe around anybody. You were the one fucking friend I felt like I had who actually cared about me and I fucked it up. I don't even know if you're still alive but the thought that you're gone makes me want to fucking vomit. I fucked up and I know it. I';m sorry. I'm so sorry. I want to try and make it up but I don't know where I can even find you. And I miss you so fucking much. People need you here. I need you.
I hope you're happy, where ever you are. I hope that if you've left, you're somewhere nice. That you're with people that make you happy. That you're loved. Because you deserve to be loved. You deserve to be happy
And I'm so fucking sorry if you're anything at all but happy.
If you're gone, I hope to see you soon if I can gather the courage
And if you're still here, I hope you don't think poorly of me. I hope you can remember me and smile.
I'm glad I got to call you my friend
And I hope someday I'll be able to be happy without you around. I hiope I won't cry about you anymore. That I'll be able to think of you and smile