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to my first kiss.
2 days ago · · Ily, · Explicit
you will probably and hopefully never read this because i know that if you do you’ll probably never look at me the same again.
i love you. i love your smile your laugh everything about you but unfortunately you don’t feel the same. i look at you and see perfection you look at her and see perfection. i wanna admit my feelings so bad but i know what the reply will be.
i don’t know why you say the things you do like saying we won’t talk in the future.
i feel one day i’ll look at your snapchat name and it’ll say pending.
although you’ve reassured me that won’t happen.
i always overthink everything that comes out of your mouth.
the time you were worried i didn’t make it home and every time your phone buzzed you instantly grabbed it and when you saw it wasn’t my name on the screen you sighed and worried even more.
when i’m on delivered for more then 10 minutes i overthink and worry someone is going to text me saying “i know what you did”
when your friend asked me if i had sex with you.
i’ve never wanted a response so badly.
so now i sit here 5:17am waiting for you to wake up for school to see my text and answer me truthfully.
if you told anyone what we did together.
the future will only determine what happens to us.
what i fear the most is you kissed her 2 days after telling me you loved me.
even if we part i’ll still care about you till the end of time.
because you were probably the first boy to ever tell me he loved me.
but to you i think i was just a distraction.
i hope to see you in my future.
i better see you in my future.