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My Unsent Letter
3 months ago · · Rant,
To the person that confuses me more than anyone ive ever met...
i love you. ive known you less than a year, and been close enough to consider us more than colleagues for even less than that. mostly i convince myself i dont think of you like that. and then i hear your laugh, or see how bright your smile is, how sparkly and wide your eyes get when everyone is joking around having fun. I look at the pictures we have and see the genuine happiness on both our faces and sometimes its comforting in a friendly way and others it makes me imagine what could be. i wish things werent as confusing as they are now. i wish i didnt see you like this. because i know that if you knew it would change things. it would have to, at least for a while. so for now, until i can decipher my own mind and feelings i will admire you from afar, trrying day in and day out to convince myself that youre just my best friend, but deep down i think youll alaways mean something more than that. so ill try to distract myself with people, people i know are temporary, people that could never compare to the way you make me feel, until i dont feel that way anymore when i see you or hear your voice, even see your name.
though no matter how this ends, ill always hold a piece of you in my heart. and i hope we will always be close. i hope youre well s <3