What are you looking for?
1 month ago · · stress relief,
I honestly just don't know. Like, we started off as strangers. We didn't know each other and you especially didn't know me. I was curious about you when I first saw you and thought you were beautiful, then we got to meeting each other somehow. We danced at a wedding party and feelings occurred. I think my feelings were stronger than yours, since thats just how I am. I love hard and fall even harder. Then we started going to parties together and then you broke up with your lover. We didn't talk for months, then suddenly somehow we started talking again. You invited me to a few get togethers and it was relaxed and chill. At some point, my feelings shifted. It was such an odd feeling. It went from desiring something that felt like I couldn't have, to something within my grasp. However, I am now no longer interested in grabbing that which I desired so much. We are friends, maybe I have conflicting emotions because I used to like you, but I now know who you are, and I know you will not last in my life. Whether that be as a lover or a good friend. I know the trajectory of my life, and I don't know if I am able to see you in my life in the long run. I would love for you to stick around, however..... I don't know if that's a possibility. It hurts to see someone I used to be interested in, interested in other people. I know we are nothing and just friends, but these old feelings make it hard to be around you. It's me, maybe it's you. Either way, these feelings and this friendship are causing me detrimental and difficult conflicting emotions.