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I'm Tired of It
1 month ago · · Venting
It may be dramatic, but I really am exhausted from always being the second choice. In every situation that it comes to be. The second choice, or the last choice, I'm always one of the two. Now considering that I'm even a choice in general I should be happy, but it's been this way for so long.
Friendships, relationships, family, games or messages. All of it. It leaves an ache in my chest that I hate, it makes me sick. I just want to be someone's first choice for once. I had that before, and I took it for granted because I didn't realize. So is this just karma for me?
If this is how he felt I feel so horrible for what I've done. I can never apologize enough, but this feeling is so sickening.