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2 months ago · · Venting,
Humans are weird. When I allowed myself some time to grieve I did not expected to find myself on the road of suicide but here we are.
Sometimes, when the emocional side is fighting the racional one, it’s almost like there’s only one way out. And I hate it.
There is absolute no need for suicide, I didn’t ever considered it when the racional side said that it was time to sit down, cry and think of no tomorrow. Well, now that I put it like that it makes sense.
Emotions are raw, they live and strip of sense, to fight and burn til they can’t. Logic is in the other side of rawness, it’s borderline cruel, calculated, too far from what we call humanity.
It’s brutal how society expect you to be racional, and if you cry it’s a weakness, you’re vulnerable, and you have to bottle up. And when it’s too much, it’s too much for both sides, because you can’t seem to find a logical solution.
I hate it that my racional side can’t stop the emocional one of showing itself, of making absurd thoughts.
I think I’ll have to just sleep it out, and hope I don’t remember tomorrow.