My Unsent Letter

Hey you,

I hope you're doing well. I was laying on my bed and started thinking about you. That is why I am writing this. I feel sad and sorry to see the situation we are now, after all we've been through. We were dating for a while and then you decided it was better to be just friends. I respected that and we became best friends. Our relationship was healthy and it became the strongest friendship I had, because I knew you as a boyfriend and also as a friend. That intimacy was just perfect. But suddenly, when everything was good, you decided to stop it, again, without proper explanation.

I loved u and cared about u. It hurts to think that all you think is that I've been manipulating you and controlling you with my kindness. If I was kind to you, it was because I wanted to, but never tried to manipulate you. I truly loved you and cared about you and being in this situation kills me. I think I didn't deserve those harmful words without reason and I do deserve an explanation. I was in a hard situation and you didn't care. However, I am not mad at you know, because I know that you're a good boy, you showed me in the past. Although I need to be apart from you now, to heal myself. You'll always be my first love and I will not forget or regret the good parts of our relationship, maybe we could go back to be friends when you realise that you cannot put people who loves you away without reason. If that happens, I will be waiting. Besides, if something happens to you, I will still support you from distance.

Love you,

xx