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2 months ago · · best friend, · Explicit
I have a dear childhood friend that is younger this 2 years younger than me. We have been through a lot of moments together, all emotions that u can think of. But recently she has and is going through it. But before I get to my side.. I want to tell her home and another story that forever changed her. (Disclaimer: I want to tell her story so you can understand this situation better.) since childhood, her parents didn't give her much of the attention she deserves. What I mean is that she always had a roof over her head, she had food to eat, somewhere to sleep, someone to take care of her...etc. Yes all of those things are fundamental for any human being but they are a different case than u think for her. The roof over her head, that is important. When she was younger they would pick her up and obvs she would go to her house. But her problems at home would make her go sleep at the local school park and it would genuinely concern me, but idk if it was true. Having food to eat is absolutely crucial. But the case is that she didn't have a regular family dinner every night. Her mom would work all day and his dad would stay home because he was sick and a older sister who...honestly she has been kind to me and we're just cool with each other but things she has done and said...iykyk..(going into that later). Her mom during her break would come and make food for her dad, mom and her sister. I believe she had done her own meals or her bigger sister does maybe. Finally, someone to take care of her. Thank God she has both of her parents and a big sister. But even tho her mom isn't home often, she comes back home to take care of things; her dad can't take care of her or her sister wherever she is or is doing; They still all live in the same roof. But what makes this all different at the same time and what I have seen is that, they treat her like shit. As she is growing up. I have heard what they say to her and she says back..and so on, when she was younger her parents didn't check on her either her sister. Ever since I can remember, she always felt like home here with our gang so she didn't have to deal with things at home, it was the absolute opposite. If it wasn't that she met me and our gang. Idk how she have been through that. NOW, to the second story: Before she entered HS (I was already in HS at the time.) She met this guy who I don't want to mention his name.( 1. Privacy 2. The situation between my BFF and him 3. He Himself, is (I'll explain later)) He was already with another girl who was our friend but apparently she stole him from her and to this day still have beef. Let me clarify, not with the rest of the gang, only her. Little did we all know he still liked the other girl he dated and my friend and him had the most toxic NO! Poisonous relationship I have ever seen and you won't believe! I'll be here all day just talking about but I won't, too long! But long story-short, he was seeing the other girl but my friend knew very well and whenever he would want to go somewhere he would ask my friend and he already know where he was going. I don't understand till this day, why she didn't brake the relationship sooner when literally he is telling her right in her face saying, "am going with (my friend's name) She was BLIND! BLIND! But guess what, my other friend too did not do anything! YES U READ THAT!! WTF!! Idk what is it about this guy that they literally have him between a rope of a tug-of-war! I remember one time she spend all her time with him and she forgot about her best friend and I would usually be at home. But when she wasnt with him,, she would come to my house and later be with him again and ignore me. But then I was hanging out with my other friend (Remember, they had beef?) Regardless, My friend and him kept with the relationship and they were taking late night rides every weekends and doing whatever they were doing. Until one day my BFF was like, "Do you want to come with me to the store to buy a pregnancy test?" YES, u already know. I was doubting her a lot saying that she is not pregnant, because....she wasn't even in HIGH SCHOOL!!!! She was literally a child! Until one day she did
it and it looked like she wasn't but also she was. But I kept doubting her... But it turns out she was actually pregnant and her baby daddy had a situation and had to leave the city. He didn't help her with shit!! Not that he completely lost communication with her but the only thing he would do is just talk to her. I kept telling her to forget and forget and forget about him. But she said that it was his baby and she can't do that. But the Benefit of the doubt is she was able to go with her baby daddy and where he lived to stay for a few days. But when she came back, he was still the same...(Now u see why I didn't want to say that about him) Whats even worse is that she has to deal with her pregnancy and when her baby was born alongside with her family. Plus, his bigger sister had a baby too and (I seriously need to say this) I don't know who does this bitch think she is, she would leave it to her to "Babysit" while she went out with her friends or with her bf or doing something else. My BFF wanted to leave her house and move in with her bby daddy where he lived and until she snapped and said her family got her fucked up. (I HONESTLY have never been proud of her) but eventually that didn't go well. Fast forward before I graduated highschool, she told me was pregnant again. Nothing more to say about this except that I was in misbelief. This girl couldn't be anymore blind. Still her baby daddy didn't do shit and again with her family.. Now my side of my story. Ofc I am not going to tell my whole life story again but I need to confess: So remember when I said that she had spend all of her time with him and she left her gang alone? It was 180 when I hung out with the girl who she has beef with. (Let me clarify, I didn't hang with her so I can get my BFF to hang with me again and leave her bf, which I would loved that she did but my other friend and I genuinely became bffs, But I loved my childhood BFF very much) This is at the time she got pregnant with her first baby and because I was spending more and more time with my other BFF, she was left at home like I was. But this was different. I became guilty that I didn't visit my pregnant BFF. Then I didn't get to go out because of the pandemic. Until she had her baby I visited her a lil bit more. (Now this next part was when I stopped hanging out with my bff she had beef with, it was for bullshit reasons) But until I got to college and I didn't visit her and she will give birth to her child maybe in a month or two. Also, one of my gang BFF moved away for a while but she came back and her and I were hanging out together than with my friend that who knows what's going on in her house. Like, what kind of friends are we? If I were the pregnant one or my bff I know for sure she would come because I know her and she is that kind of person. Before writing this, I have to say that I had a mini breakdown thinking about her and her two girls. If u thought of any advice for anyone of us please comment below plz! I appreciate it a lot and btw this is the longest I have ever written here so I know some of u might not see this... :(