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The boy I fell in love with and how he broke my heart
1 month ago · · Breakup,
I gave you everything and you still left me. I would had given you the world and I still would, but you threw me away and I have to move on. I still love you and that should show you I was real the whole time. You never even said anything to me when I needed you. After my car accident I felt as though I should had died. I was so sad and so alone and I just needed you. Then you go and tell people you don't want to talk to me or even see me. I started crying as soon as I heard that because that broke me. Physically because my ribs broke in the car accident and now emotionally I am in pain. I don’t wish anything bad for you although you deserve that. I know I will get better and I can better myself, I have to because I only have myself now. I still miss you and I can't stop thinking of you. You were the only person I have ever loved. I hope I find someone new to fall in love with. Some guy who won't leave even when they think it's too much. I know some other guy will treat me right. I hope you never forget about me although I know you never will because I was your first. That makes me even sadder because I only did it because I fell in love with you. I thought you had loved me too and I thought we would last forever. I saw a future with us but you have put me in such a bad mindset and I will never forgive you for this. The worst part is you don’t even know I feel this way. I look for you everywhere I go I can't stop. We didn’t even get that much time together. It happened so fast so why am I so attached. Why did I talk to you for hours and tell you all my secrets. I thought falling in love was so scary but you made it seem so amazing. But now I know your love was fake. Why am I even surprised why would anyone fall in love with me.
You told me you loved everything about me. Was it all a lie? The things I told you that I never have told anyone now I wish I hadn’t but how was I supposed to know this is how we would end up. I am now alone again but that is how I’ve always been so I will figure it out.