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3 weeks ago · · Breakup, · Explicit
like, what am I even doing on this?
my colleague is struggling to talk to any girls, let alone one he likes, its hard to give him advice when im just going through my own break up (what a bitch of a situation that is) like, all I want to say to him is dont fuck up, dont maybe i want to say dont even bother, because if it goes wrong, goes south, gets fucked up, then ... it hurts, it does nothing but hurt, and does someone ever recover from that? is it even mental health if its not your own? but im finding myself sinking further and further into a hole, its not depression i dont think, im still going out and seeing people, doing things, luckily i dont struggle to talk to people (weird considering im fugly) and i think thats why hes asked for my advice, but what if it never stops hurting? what does one do then? i dont want to turn self destructive and i dont want to start being an asshole of a man just because my heart is destroyed, but i cant stand here and pretend its all flowers and stuff, because its not, it hurts, it hurts so much, i tried so hard to be what people think is a good person or a good man, and sure i made mistakes, i never tried to pretend im perfect, not once, but now im feeling bitter because i dont get why or how someone treats someone like this, i guess ill find them answers eventually, i have to right? right?
Thanks for listening to what is essentially my rant, its time to do something about it all, what that is and where that road goes i dont know, but in all honesty, im excited to find out, hopefully i find peace, because i need peace, im so tired, good night, ill type on here again at some point, hopefully in a more positive light, if youre reading this and relate, good luck, by god i mean that, good luck, dont give in, dont give up,