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6 months ago · · parenting,
Today was a hard day at time. im married with twi sometimes difficult kids. I try my best to raise these two and teach them boundaries and respect and how to deal woth thier emotions and all the things you want them to know. Today i feel like no matter how hard i tried my shorter temper of the day made me fail more then help. My oldest is 9, ADHD, and anxiety at a minimum, clinically diagnosed and medicated. Listening and focusing on what you are telling him is always hard for him but today it was like he could not focus at all. I feel like all i did was yell at him today. I try to balance letting him feel heard yet keeping him from backtalking and being disrespectful. Today i feel like i failed more than i won that battle. I see alot about child hood trauma on tixk tock, mainly refdering to what i could uave had. But tonight one hit me hard and i just dont want to screw my child up. Me and his mom are not together, he has trouble at school and can let his emotions get the better of him. I want to help him learn how to manage hos emotions so they dont control him but it can be so hard. He loves video games and i try to play with him but looking back on today i missed him trying to help me play the way he wanted to. I know apl i can do is learn and move on. I tell him i love him at least twice a day and i do what i feel is my best. I just wish my best was better. I wish that i could give him every bit what he deserves. I have to get him up at 5 am so i can be at work by 630. If you made it this far thanks for reading my rambling.i take it one day at a time and try to do better everyday. I just needed to get these thoughts out of my head.