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2 months ago · · anger,
My anger is destroying myself and my family. I have noticed that something in me has changed. Few years back, I used to be a patient, calm, laid back person, that doesn't almost care what's going on around me; as long I'm not threatened or hurt.
Few months ago I got married to my wife. For 3 months of our marriage, happiness was a constant flow like a calm, endless river. We were living the dream. However, the sweetness turned in to bitterness; the healthy red rose became black and wilted.
Our marriage is going downhill.
Everyday is an endless argument. I don't know why, she irritates me for no apparent reason. It goes same to her as well, she gets irritated for no reason.
We fight almost everyday which is not healthy anymore. We fight to the point we disrespect each other and sometime it gets physical. Each fight we have builds hate and anger in me. I scream, swear, violent, and feels like I'm a worst husband. Which is heart breaking.
Everyday, It feel like my anger is controlling me, not my true self anymore. I tried to be calm and control my anger every time we fight. I can hold my anger for short time but eventually my anger snaps. The beast is out.
I don't know how I became an angry man.
My wife and I is at the edge of our marriage.
Though I love my wife no matter what!
Any advice? Thank you.
God bless you all.