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My Unsent Letter
1 month ago · · Stress,
I wanted you to know that I'm not really fine these days, you probably have already known. Look, I'm sorry that I didn't keep in touch with you as much as I can. I don't have many good friend like you, I don't really remember why we be friend to each other. What starting it, I'm sorry I forget. You thanked me because I be friend with you when there's nobody approaching you. It's a long time ago but until today I feel thankful to be your best friend.
Many things happened. I wanted you to know that. Haha. You didn't send me any messages this past few months and I missed those time when we always chatting to each other. Talking about class, homework. Ah I missed those days.
I'm facing pretty a lot of trouble these days. You told me you are confused about what job you should be taking, actually me too. Even now I'm working full time but I feel misfit.
You remember that I always fire up here and there about study in Univ? Yeah, I'm not that girl anymore. I lost a lot of energy, I always feel lonely, I feel misfit, pressured, I don't even want to wake up next morning. Maybe I always said that I'm tired in Univ but this one is beyond my control.
You know what? You are lucky because you have a lot of friends other than me. At least you can talk to them about your matters, and they listen to you very well, without saying "Go on, I'm listening" but her thumbs dancing all the time on her phone. Honestly I'm jealous. But what can I say? I'm not smart enough to keep a friend close, like what I didn't do to you.
I'm sorry. So sorry.
You know? The season here already changed. It's getting closer to our birth month. I remember you told me to not expect gift from other girl in our group because it's only our tradition. I want to give you a gift, but I don't know what to choose. I don't know where to send it too. Maybe one day when we met again we can celebrate our birthday together.
I missed you Grace.
Wait a little bit longer there okay? I'm not going to promise that we can meet again in next life, but if I got a chance I promise to keep you close.
Till next time.