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1 month ago · · Stress,
It's happened again. For the third time in a year. That same face.
Today my mother came into my room while I was on my phone doing who knows what and then I looked up and saw her face. Under her eyes she was crying. I knew what happened almost immediantly. You see, my grandmother was undergoing her 2nd treatment of leukemia I believe, and we also believe she downplayed what the doctors said. The first time she was over with it, but a year later was diagnosed again. It hurt to know she would have to go to the doctors so much again but I thought she would be okay like last time. She was strong right, she would make it. Or at least thats what I kept telling myself. That is until it got worse. Than this Sunday in the middle of my mom, brother, and me's day trip, my mom got a text from my dad. He wanted to pick us up early and take us to see my grandma. They didn't think she was gonna make it. She made it through the night miraculously, and I thought she'd at least make it through thanksgiving. But yet today that grieving face showed again. For the third time this year. She's gone. At first I was in pure shock and couldn't believe it and now while writing this I'm in tears. I still can't believe it. I never even got to say goodbye, I only got to hug her. And even then I could tell how weak she was. She couldn't even move up without having help, or hold a glass of water or whatever she was drinking. She was in pain. And now she's not and I'm glad for that. She's in a better place now. But now I just have the feeling that face will show again. The same grieving face that has awoken me, hurt me, and made me cry. Thanksgiving is going to be tough. I love you Grandma. Always will. And I know you will continue to watch me grow up while you watch Grandpa live on.