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1 week ago · · Need Advice
throughout my life I’ve had really bad rejection sensitivity dysphoria. Its not just like “oh I didn’t get accepted into this thing I’m sad” its like i want to off myself when i get rejected, and so to cope with that I’ve made myself so low maintenance and literally never ask for anything. I’ve been buying my own clothes with my own money since I was twelve because I know i can’t handle it if my parents refuse. And it’s not just that, but like, it takes so much in me to ask for something no matter how small it is. I asked my brother to drive me somewhere (admittedly at an earlier time than convenient) and he said he didn’t want to, a so I asked my dad, who also refused without a reason. Then, I went back to my brother, open to negotiating and giving him whatever he wanted because I can never ask for something without giving something in return. He still said no, and I just feel like an idiot for prodding him and pleading and now boom mental breakdown in the bathroom thanksgiving night. Super fun.