What are you looking for?
It matter of time before the poison consume me.
6 months ago · · Stress,
I am tired, I am loveness, I am lonely, and I am tired of being good.
I don't know if I can find my true or significant other. I have my family but, it is not the same. I can love myself and be myself because I've been practicing for years.
With the pandemic, unrealities of standards of women ideal of a man, society are growing stupid and entitled and lost hope for humanity. I am thinking of going back to my former job that causes disarray, chaos and putting people into permanent sleep. No matter hard I try to be good or help others. Other people are selfish, greedy, and are a**hole. They ruined hope in life or humanity. Sometimes, I want to do it. But, my current job is helping me to calm down. The group I am currently working with needs a good male role model and shows them right and wrong. However, according to their false culture and standard, other people don't want to take responsibility or consider it toxic.
Now. I do receive love from my friends, family, and the group I worked with. Being alone is significant great in some ways and benefits. However, it gets boring sometimes. But, I have two years left before committing to my poison path.
To my future wife or girlfriend or women are concern about me? Please find me or help me find a suitable partner—my broken heart has through too much stress and disappointment from 6th grade until deployment to the Middle East. I did seek help from a few for emotional and physical needs. But, I have been repairing and remodifying my broken heart for too long. This time it will be my last maintenance before adding performance poison for life path.