Unemployed

The job I had wasn’t good. It was minimum wage pay but I liked the job itself. I liked the coworkers, the boss, the customers. It was the first place I could go and have people see me for me, not my mom’s daughter. I feel like my whole life I’ve just been linked to her and now I have this new job where no one knows who I am and I can finally recreate myself. I left it because I got a job offer at a jewelry manufacturer nearby. It was twice the pay and half the distance and it had benefits galore. I went to the first day (night, the shift was from 5-2:30AM), got through the first day, and I realized I couldn’t work there. By the time I got home at 3, I couldn’t move my hands. I wanted to cry because I thought that job would work and it would be my ticket to freedom and starting my own life, and instead it absolutely sucked. By the next day, I couldn’t even open my hands. I’m supposed to go yo the dr’s soon to see if I have carpal tunnel, arthritis, or Raynaud’s Disease. What really sucks to me is right before I got the call from the jewelry, I got a call back from Walmart to do curbside shopping and I told them no. I called back and called back and never got the manager again. I’ve reapplied but haven’t heard back either. I’m considering applying at the grocery store but they only hire cashiers and stockers. I wanna stay away from money. I’ve been unemployed for about two weeks now. My old job hired someone new the day I left. I’m going back to help them for the next three days but it still sucks bc I know it’s not gonna be the same. Rant over. If you’d mind leaving some kind words or advice please do <3