To My First Kiss

Dear First Kiss,

I absolutely adore you, your smile, your blonde hair and brown eyes. The way we laugh every time we look at one another. I miss this, i wish you could make up your mind what you are doing with me? One minute you are kissing me in your bed and the next you are hardly talking to me, why? You were my first kiss, you told me that night on the 3 hour phone call that it was the best phone call you had ever had in forever. Then why push me away? You tell me constantly how much you enjoy talking to me. So why? I get you are scared for your best friend and mine as well to find out but I don't understand why for ONCE we can't put OUR happiness first and ignore others opinions. I am so tired of caring about everyone around me but myself and you are my true happiness. I never knew what it was like to be addicted to a person until i met you and to be honest it is annoying. I now ache for your touch, your hugs, the way you pull me close to you in your bed and scream at me if i don't get under your navy blue blanket. I love you with all of my heart and you made the first move so you have to love me too. Why can't we just be happy together? i miss you. i miss US.