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Loving the Right Person at the Wrong time
5 months ago · · Love,
I love you with all of my heart. I love your blonde hair, brown eyes, your smile, your laugh, the way you always try to tickle me and pull me in when we are in bed. I love it when you yell at me to get under your navy blue blanket (i purposely don't get under it just so you can make me, i find it so funny how it bothers you, it's so cute). I love that your to go to show is Family Guy, it's always on your TV no matter what you are doing. I adore the way you explain your favorite color is cobalt blue because of a painting of glass bottles you use to stare at when you were a baby. I adore When we call for hours at night and you constantly tell me how much you enjoy talking to me.
But then the reality kicks in and punches us both in the face, that we are forbidden love. That if we got together we would both lose our best friends. We choose other people's happiness over our own. I never thought i would say this but it is so annoying not being selfish. I got addicted to your touch, your laugh, your face and i can't have it all because of two people. We stopped hanging out because we knew if we continued we would fall even more harder than we have already. It is the most dreading thing i have ever had to do, i have never liked a person as much as i have you. I know you are not a trustworthy boy and you are toxic, i have heard so many stories and rumors about you. And yeah, maybe this is the universes way of telling me you and I would be a train wreck, and you would break me into a million pieces, but i do not care one bit. Only thing i want right now is you, i want your warm hugs, i want to be cuddled up in your cozy bed with your arms around me while Family Guy plays in the background and I hear you chuckle over the stupidest thing Peter Griffin had said. I miss you so much.
I wish the timing was better, that destiny wasn't so cruel, i wish we laid eyes on each other when the odds were in our favor, nevertheless, your pretty brown eyes and your adorable smile will always be engraved in the walls of my memory.
But maybe, just maybe, in the future when the time is right, we will find each other again.