A rant (ignore)

Is it just the norm for a person to be gaslit then called names or accused of something FOR JUST TRYING TO TALK TO YOUR OWN FAMILY BECAUSE THEY'RE JUST SO FUCKING MISERABLE? GOOD GOSH.

They think they can try to silence me and just keep making excuses about stuff to keep me here like a prisoner on house arrest if I want to go somewhere , but if they want to go somewhere they get in the fucking car and go.

I'm tired of being slighted, silenced for speaking the truth to them because they don't wanna hear it , and for being used and abused multiple fucking ways by them. What kind of hellhole is this anyway? Nobody ever held them down. Nobody ever held their material possessions hostage in a pawn shop like they're doing to some of mine.

They have the mentality "it's ok we can treat (my name) any old way and they can't do a damn thing about it and it doesn't matter"

Call them on anything they go it's "you're crazy" "yours stupid" " you're lazy" "you're sure stressed aren't you"

But I'm just expected to be told " fuck you fuck you fuck you fuck you fuck you fuck you fuck you fuck you fuck you!!!! " without cause and forget it and not bring it up. You'd be crazy too if you lived in this craphole with crappy family too who treat you worse than a chained outside animal.

It's ok treat our flesh and blood like garbage but expect them to be our safety net (dad) if we run out of drugs on hellacious unruly belligerent drunken drug binges.

What the actual fuck am I supposed to do they're so fucking unstable I can't even talk to them they get aggressive when I do about the whole shitty situation like I'm supposed to take their bullshit and not say nothing. NOBODY WILL EVER SILENCE ME DO YOU UNDERSTAND MOM AND DAD??????!!!!!!

I get it mom it's more stress than you can clearly handle too but you take yours out on me like always so I get it all!!!! And that's just plain not right. I'm not your scapegoat. Why did they even bring me into this world to just know hell and misery because they're just FUCKING bastards who are trash like my relatives purport them to be. Fuck this bullshit.

I wish God would revisit all this on my dad's head for being cause of it all but wanting 0 responsiblity for his actions.

Comments have been disabled by the author