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Once upon a time there was a guy who believed no one would truly love him. He began to believe he doesn't deserve love.... Then he met a woman that he knew he would love... a fairy tale if you would. they get married and have a child. He thought he was wrong for the first time in his life about himself.... 8 years down the road and she has an affair... He found out.
Now it is worse than before, no feeling, no love, just emptiness for everyone and everything. Family use to be important to him but that has changed. He no longer cares about reunions, holidays nor birthdays...He still does what he used to except that there's nothing behind the actions anymore.. A smile that doesn't really exist but is still shown.... He doesn't feel anymore. No real happiness to be had just.... existing.
2 years later he manages to reconnect with someone in his younger life and build a connection a real connection with her. This person he's always secretly loved... someone that he had lost touch with before he met his ex-wife and met her again after the fact... But he feels dead inside, there are moments where a feeling seems to almost poke its head but...
Now he's scared he wont feel again. He feels lost, he wants to escape but where could he run to... He's faced it for 2 years but still hasn't made any leeway, not even a tiny bit.
He knows he loves her, he knows he still does. But now he fears what if he's not enough...What if.... what if she doesn't feel the same. She is interested she shows she is fully into him. She kisses him, she tells him everything will be ok... She knows his past, she knows what happened in his marriage...She knows and she holds him...but...What if....
He is afraid to tell her how broken he really is... He is afraid to tell her he is tired.... Tired of this emptiness, tired of the pain of having no feeling... Tired of this world, tired of everything. Her smile makes him smile, but there is no tingle. Even his child's smile doesn't affect him anymore...
Why is he so broken, why.... Why does nothing work anymore... Does he have to keep moving this way, showing a fake smile most of the time... Is this his life now... Should he even live anymore... what's the point...
He.. is just soo...Tired
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ReplyI think true love can be healing. I like this guy that was in a relationship. I'm sure he knew. Everyone did. But if I had the chance. I think I could make that guy happier...ijs maybe that's how she would feel if she knew all this....?
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