What are you looking for?
4 months ago · · Stress,
I just feel tired. Nothing matters anymore and if I do find something that matters its temporary. I'll find something to keep me occupied for a couple of days and then I'm back to sad old me. Existing is tiring. I know life is beautiful but it's also scary, sad, lonely, and confusing. I don't even cry anymore....theres no point and I simply can't do it. It's not like my tears can open up a portal filled with answers.
I've tried everything in the book to make myself "happy" but there is nothing. I've experienced an existential crisis one too many times. I can't enjoy anything without questioning the point. And ik some people find it liberating to have things not have a point....but that just makes things worse for me.