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So it turns out I am a jealous person.
1 week ago · · Relationship Advice, · Explicit
I'm not the sort of jealous person who controls their other half and makes them feel bad for being attracted to someone. I'm the kind of person who gets so deeply hurt by knowing that the person they love most, could possibly be staring at other photos of people they find attractive and wishing that I were to look like them. I hate that I don't feel good enough even when I've had the most reassurance someone could possibly give.
I know he loves me. He says he wants to spend his life with me. But in my head, if someone comes along with the same personality as me but just way prettier and hotter, he'd be stupid not to pick them. Why does my mind think like this when I KNOW he loves and cares about me. He would never do that and as much as I tell myself that, I don't think I'll ever get over the fear of being left. I stg I love him with my whole fucking heart and I just hope he doesn't see in me what I see in myself, because if he does, what is there to love.