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Trapped

4 months ago · 2 · depressed, +2


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I know it is cliché to talk about this, but some people are not as strong as other people. I am a 27-year old closeted gay man living a homophobic country. I have been feeling fine (well now I am not so sure) but I do not know why. I think I have reached my breaking point. I feel like I am suffocating myself and I cannot breathe. Right now I have the sudden urge to leave this country behind and go to another where I can be free. I can be safe, I can smile, I can be honest with myself, I can be happy. Why am I feeling like this. I feel so depressed and people would describe me as a happy go-lucky person.

But I am trying to be determined and believe the phrase It gets better. I will study hard, I will find a job to save money and be able to do what I want.

In case you are wondering, I do live in a Christian household and coming out is my greatest fear. I can just feel the disappointment in my parents’ eyes and how they will not see me like the same person as I was before. I know things will never be the same. Am I truly not destined to he happy??

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  • sad_minion_82 · 4 months ago

    I also live in a Christian household, and my parents have been very vocal about how being attracted to people of the same sex is wrong, but I have a friend who is a homosexual in a Christian family, and their father is supportive of them, so it's definitely different for everyone. And since you mentioned this, I think you'd be successful if you study hard and build yourself a life you like. Good luck!

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  • Novni Guest · 4 months ago

    Stick to your plan. Get out and be free.

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