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I hate myself. Everything about me makes me feel so negative. I’m married, have a sweet child, and fortune enough to be a SAHM. But all of these things are so hard to juggle when I can’t even stand the thought of myself. I’m so bored with my life. I wake up, do the same things every single day, and struggle while doing them. Everything seems so challenging. Doing the things I use to enjoy take so much effort, like cooking. I feel worthless and awful. I feel so guilty that my husband has to deal with me everyday. I feel terrible that my son has me as a mother. I have no hobbies
They constantly money we simply don’t have. I don’t have any friends as I’m not from the town we live in. My mother has too many things on her plate to worry about her adult child and I don’t have a father. Getting a job would mean putting financial burden on my family. I know I’m depressed, anxious, sad, angry. So many strong emotions for one person. I’ve been juggling them all for a long time. I just want to feel like I’m worth something. I want to wake up and not be exhausted by my every day duties. I want to wake up and love myself, my home, my life. I want my mental health to be better, my health in general. I understand that there is counseling, but it’s far too expensive. I understand that there are resources, but we don’t qualify for anything. I’m stuck in a constant battle with myself and I just hate myself at this point. I feel guilty for everything, I’m angry all the time. All I do is cry. My husband is as supportive as he can be, but it’s a lot for him to handle as well. I even feel guilty about writing this post… how pathetic is that? I hate myself so much, my life has become too overwhelming. I’m sorry for such a long post.
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This post isn't very long at all. Some churches have a counselor that you can see for free so check the churches in your area. Have God with you as well so that you are looking after your spiritual welfare.
ReplyI'm so sorry you've been feeling this way. One thing I can suggest is trying to form friendships through social media. I live in a town I'm not originally from and most people around here don't share my values. Plus, I don't have a car to just go explore different places and meet people. If you're feeling like you're stuck at home with no friends the way I used to feel, the best advice I can give is to try what helped me. Look for groups online with people who share the same interests as you. Over the past several years I've actually formed close friendships after stumbling into posts on Twitter about my favorite TV show (of all things). It gives us a common interest to talk about, but the friendships go far beyond that. When you talk with the same group every day you all get to know each other. There have been so many benefits to finding this group for me.
I still have bouts of depression, of course. But there are people online who care about me, and that alone is often a huge comfort.
So think of something you used to enjoy a lot that you would be able to talk about and see if you can find a group on your favorite social media platform. I know it might sound a little weird, but it's worth a try. It's called *social media for a reason. A lot of people are able to form connections and find things to laugh about every day with the friends they talk to online.
I hope this helps, or even sparks another idea that would fit your life better. And I truly hope you find what you need. You don't deserve to feel so awful. So please be gentle with yourself and start trying to see all the reasons the people in your life care about you. I know that's easier said than done, but please just try not to be so hard on yourself.
ReplyI feel the same way,i m a new mom struggling with job,health,home everything..I love my daughter thats all i care abt.stay strong
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