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7 months ago · · Suicide,
I wish I knew how much he loved me. If the choice I’m making is the right decision. I wish I knew if I was really losing him or if I was ever going to really lose him. I wish I knew if I really am just delusional and that everything is okay. But in the end, I’m tired of being crazy so much that I’m done being here. I’ve been in a war with myself for so long and it’s almost impossible to fight, how can I go my whole life like this. I wish I knew if he would be better off without me, maybe I’m doing him a favour and this is the way its supposed to be, it sucks so much that I’m so unwell and that I’m crazy. I wish more than anything that I was normal. I’m tired now.