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5 months ago · · Stress
this is just a rant. im stressed all the time about college and life. i stupidly dropped out of college while i was upset about things and i knew it was an impulsive decision. it's been over a year and it's really messed up a huge amount of my life and my future. people talk about intrusive thoughts - i think i allowed the intrusive thought of messing up become real and it haunts me constantly. my friends are going forward with college and relationships and i feel entirely stuck. sometimes i feel better but it's been a long time and this feeling still flares up. i don't know why i struggle with this and i'm sick of trying to explain it to people. i understand i have people who care but i have some kind of un-explain-able upset inside me about this. i feel unreachable and surrounded at the same time. this probably won't make any difference but i'm typing it anyway.