Overthinking

I know i love my friends. They're very dear to me. But i feel like i dont show/let the poeple i love know i care about them. And im scared one day they'll all just leave and i'll be alone. But i dont do much to prove it. So feel like such a bad friend.

But i know i'm just stuck in my thoughts right now. I know everyone expresses their love in different ways. But when i think about it, nothing i do seems like an act of appreciation. But i know they must already know how I feel without me verbally expressing. Almost 10 years since we all became friends. If they've stuck around me for that long, of course they'd know I care. So I definitely need to stop overthinking.

I sent them a msg before writing this and one of them basically said I didnt have to worry because I was doing great. I'm not really sure what great I've done but I cried a bit because idk it was reassuring. But now I feel like I'm fishing for compliments, which doesnt make sense. Idk whats going on with my thoughts right now. None of it makes sense.