What are you looking for?
6 months ago · · smile,
I'm just so sick of everyone, with their negative attitudes. I want everyone to be equal. I want someone who will be there for me when i get home and hug me and give me kisses. I don't want depression pills or a therapist. I want someone who cares. I don't want a doctor to diagnose my issues, i want a loving person to heal my heart when it's broken. Please just help me.. I don't wanna die, or commit suicide. I just want someone to listen, someone to comfort me. I want you and me to smile, for no reason. No one is free anymore, were all controlled by someone. To be more exact we are doing what we think is best for others, not what's best for us.. Everything you see is the highlights. You don't see what i do, you never will. I'm always multitasking. Sleeping medicine dont work and pain relief cant help my emotional pain. You don't understand what i'm going through unless you've been through it. So where's the fallen angels who know whats going on..? They'll know how to help me.. Don't tell me "it's gonna be okay", because to many people have heard those words and decided they'd had enough. Life isn't living, its learning how to deal with problems, love, pain, sadness, anger, happiness, and hard times etc.. I've seen people change like wilting flowers, and so have I. Smile, please.. So my smile doesn't feel lonely. Let me be in a world of peace, and beautiful words. Let me read the love note she/he wrote me, so i can feel loved. Watching me and being me is different. You don't know why i'm like this. You don't know me. You never will, if you continue to grow more distant. Please don't leave me.. You're the only star that shines when i look at the sky. Don't let the butterflies fly you away from me.. I'm not faking my smile, i just remember the happy memories once in a while. You're beautiful, please keep being you. Don't let your life decide your emotions, Don't be like me. Even if im crying doesn't mean you have too, you can smile, and be my light. Give me CPR so i can breathe. I'm sorry that i don't try enough, it's just my emotions are covering up my true self. Go ahead and judge me for my flaws, my style, my compassion. At Least i have a heart, at least i believe we can do better. Dying doesn't help neither, its just a more painful way of doing this cycle longer. So show me where this fantasy is at? Obviously those sweet smiles aren't with me.