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The Worst Goodbye

5 months ago · 1 · Suicide


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You left us. When you took your life, we found your body. Do you know what that did to my brother? My mom? Me? No and you never will. My brother stopped eating for days and dropped weight like he was on drugs. My mom stopped getting out of bed and I was left to fend for myself. Yet I want you to come back. I want to listen to you read me the Princess Bride again. I want to watch your reaction as you try Nutella for the first time; something we planned to do when I saw you next. I want to listen to you play guitar with my brother as you practice the Spanish you taught to him. I want to see you stand up there next to my brother as his best man when he says “I do” to his wife. But I can’t. This is my goodbye. The goodbye that I never got to say.

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