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I don’t want help, I want death

4 months ago · 4 · Suicide, +2 · Explicit


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I am not going to therapy or a clinic. If I go, it’ll just delay my inevitable death and cause me more suffering in the long run. Life isn’t sacred, it’s all about evolution and reproduction; we don’t matter at all. That’s reality, life and death are of equal value. I would stay alive if I could by doing nothing, but you have to fight to stay alive. Dying is hard at first because you have to overcome your survival instinct, but when you do, you are gone for good and you don’t have to struggle anymore. Fuck society for making it this hard to kill yourself just because it reminds them of their own mortality or they are scared to let go of their loved ones. I want to die with dignity and not traumatize people, but the moment any one notices my plans I am going to be incarcerated. People treat me badly and want me gone, but I am not allowed to kill myself, only live in misery. Stop pretending like you give a shit because I know you don’t care about a stranger; the only reason you want to help someone like me is because you want to feel like a hero or you can’t deal with the fact that some people don’t want to live although it’s the one thing you strive to do.

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  • noone1902 · 4 months ago

    Ibe been crying for a while thinking these exact thoughts and wondering if anyone else realises the stupid reality we live in, how we literally do things for nothing, even love never lasts, it’s not real. There’s literally no reason to even be alive except to repopulate and for the world to go around. Im sorry that I’m not helping you it’s just hard when I’m feeling exact same way and I don’t think I’ll be around much longer, I just wanted you to know that you’re not alone

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    • Meliodas619 · 4 months ago

      i cant even repopulate so i dont have a reason at all

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  • rianna_05 · 3 months ago

    I finally seen someone who shares the same thoughts. Do what you will with your life, it's yours. Shit nothing me or anyone else can do to stop you. just make sure you're 1000% positive with your decisions, that's the only thing that matters. Hesitation causes trouble. Be sure.

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  • Novni Guest · 3 months ago

    Sometimes I think that too. Just why are we working too hard when we all are just going to die someday. But then I experience somethings and meet some people who can change thoughts of mine. I you die you are gone and along with all the possible happiness you could have gained and without knowing that life can be a better place if you gave it a chance . I think nobody deserves to die that way regardless of whatever they do in their lives.

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