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Finally Fell in Love with my Boyfriend

3 months ago · 4 · Love, +8 · Explicit


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Hey guys, I have some good news: I finally developed romantic/sexual feelings for my boyfriend.

We met in eight grade. He was cute, smart, and nice. Not all rowdy, so much purer than his friends, and a little short (still taller than me). He always treated me with courtesy, and I thought of him as a classmate and nothing more.

We ended up going to the same high school, and he asked me out near the end of ninth grade after school. We rode the same bus, and by that point we were sort of friends. "Hey, I like you. Can I be your boyfriend?"

I said yes. I don't know why. I never liked him in that way, and I wasn't that interested in dating. Maybe I was afraid this kind of opportunity would never come by again.

We were an official couple. I told my friends, and I didn't mind that they spread the word. We had our first kiss that summer break, and I threw up when I got home from our date.

Now I'm in my senior year. We've only really fought once or twice. Mostly because I didn't actually have any feelings for him and didn't feel jealous easily.

I started to seriously like him in the beginning of my senior year. He hugged me before a big test and I just felt relaxed but also jittery. It wasn't a friendly comfort; It was a romantic one. I'm surprised we haven't broken up. And I thought I would develop feelings for him sooner but I never did.

So all's well. I'm planning on telling him about our one-sided relationship and I'll ask him if we can start over now that I actually love him.

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  • Novni Guest · 3 months ago

    think about it thoroughly because you might hurt his feelings by telling him you didn't love him before and you just said yes to the relationship out of impulse

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    • Novni Guest · 3 months ago

      I have thought about it a lot and I feel like if I never tell him, it'll feel like our relationship isn't through. Like a stone on my shoulders. Yes, he'll be hurt and devastated, but it's just an obstacle that will strengthen our relationship. I was his friend. We could just think of it as a touchy friendship that helped us to get where we are now.

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  • Pain · 3 months ago

    Well I think you always loved him, maybe you were too young to realise that not everything has to be sexual to mean a relationship. It is not always likely that if people are together it is because they are sexually attracted maybe you felt comfortable around him, maybe you didn`t know all along but you were in love. It happens, sometimes you can spend a lot of time with people, but the realisation that you love them sinks in much deeper.Are u sure u never loved him? Well atleast I know he d be happy to hear that u did.

    I know its not ideal to start ur relationship with a lie, but maybe u could be easy on him and tell him that you liked him first, now u think u love him...

    just a suggestion

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    • Novni Guest · 3 months ago

      Yes, I definitely thought of him as a big part of my life. He was nice to be around and I didn't mind the fact that we be like that forever.

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