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running from hindsight
3 months ago · · hindsight, · Explicit
hindsight is looking back at the past with a better eye. when you look back at images of yourself, you think, "how did I not realize how ugly I was," but of course, you'll think that about yourself now in a couple years.
which is fine. that's it.
but honestly, I'm sick of being afraid of my future self. I'm so mean to myself now, and little me would fucking kill themself if they heard what I said about them now. and it's kind of scary to think that in a year, all of my emotions now will be completely invalidated. by myself.
I'm afraid of my hindsight. I used to write so I could look back on it, but honestly, I'm just afraid I'll make fun of myself.
it's all kind of funny, but at the same time, it sucks.
I'm sick of being afraid of hindsight, because it's not particularly scary at all.