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8 months ago · · Insecurity,
I've always been a very insecure person. I had a boyfriend. On many occasions he told me his friends think he can do better than me. Friends who didn't even know me. Just bcoz I wasn't the prettiest girl. He told me he thought he was out of my league. On another day, he told me he believed his friend and he thought he could do better than me and that I was not good enough. I didn't even know this friend. Now imagine you're 18 years old, already struggling with body image and acceptance, and the one person you would have given the world to, thinks this way about you. Still I stuck along longer than I should have . He wasn't a great guy, he had a terrible temper , would say a lot of mean things and didn't treat me quite well. He broke up with me some time ago. Started dating another girl 2 weeks later. Which again made me feel terrible and not good enough. I kept looking up the new girl, comparing myself, seeing that she was everything I was not. Those "friends" of his would have forgotten about all this, but I without even knowing what they sound like, can hear their voices everyday. It's over 2 years. It's crazy how I believe someone who said something without even knowing me . But here I am. I'm struggling more than ever and feel absolutely worthless. It sucks how I can genuinely find beauty in EVERYONE except myself.